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Just want to relax
Friday, June 27, 2008
I have no idea what is going on now between my parents.Last night they were ok to each other and now they are planning to go for a movie together of course including me not my sis though.She went to her friend's house for a sleep over.So far so good though.We're gonna go watch incredible hulk later.My sis have watched it she say it's good so I'm excited to watch.Anyway ,school is gonna start on Monday.I'm kinda sad about it and yet I'm excited to go back to school.Oh next holiday it's September.No I'll just enjoy the time relaxing.I just want to enjoy playing PS2.
This is so horrible!
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Finally the silence is broken!Yet if feels so horrible.What i really want is for them to talk properly to each other.My mum was the one who started the talk and my dad doesn't think it's his fault.I now I know both side of the story.I regret for not talking to my dad earlier about their argument.Just now when things got really horrible is where the point where my mom says the word "Divorce" yup that is really horrible word.Instantly I know what I have to do.After my mum drop my dad at his office to get his car ,I quickly get out of the car and get into my dad's car to talk to him about their issues.To make sure he understands in what way is he wrong.And he did understand.I actually couldn't stand the argument any longer that I finally broke into tears which I have been forcing them not to come out.When they were arguing in the car I seriously felt like opening the car door and jump out of it but the I thought about it again and think that there are still so much thing on this earth that I haven't accomplish yet.Like I've said before I have a huge ambition.Anyway I had like a really serious talk with my dad in his car and he told me when ever my mum says divorce he never agrees to it because he doesn't want me and my sis to have an incomplete family ,like he did.Which I understand a lot.he kept saying that I wouldn't understand now but I told him I've been through so much of their argument why wouldn't I understand.I've gone through this ever since I was a little girl.Every argument that they have makes me worry and it really scares me that I'm going to have an incomplete family.I really don't want that.Every time I really wish they can just find what are their mistakes and admit it them say sorry and it'll be all over.The relationship that they are having aren't even abusive.Their only problem every time is miscommunication and misunderstanding.To my conclusion of this argument I think both of them have their own mistakes or maybe it's just my dad.Firstly my dad doesn't call home and at least tell us that he is safe and he just say that it's my mom's fault.After listening to my dad's side of story ,he said my mom sent him a bad message accusing him of doing something that he didn't do.Now that part I don't know if it's my mom's mistake or not but all I have to say is that she is a really sensitive person.All she want now is my dad to say sorry to her ,which he did just now in the car but then she say that when he said sorry she don't think he said it like he meant it.Well I don't know about that.So just now when I was in the car with my dad I told him to tell her sorry again properly tomorrow cuz honestly I don't want anymore argument.I want them to really solve this problem properly.I hope my mom will really accept his sorry cuz I really want her to accept it.
My mum actually thinks that I'll feel better if they don't talk about it anymore and the closure was just now in the car which was totally horrible.She actually kinda hard head ,I don't know if that makes any sense.But yeah she actually have to listen what or how I feel.I don't know if my sister is affected at all or not cuz she doesn't seem to care.Maybe my sister partly cause this problem too??I wonder......Anyway I do seriously hope by tomorrow when my dad apologize to her ,I hope she'll accept it and they'll be fine again.Now I need God's miracle work.Oh GOD please help me seriously!!
Life is weird???!!!!
Yes just like the title life is weird and it's actually also very confusing.Well I don't know about other people's life but I know mine is totally confusing.Today is one of my uncle's birthday so yeah happy birthday to him .Anyway I'm suppose to go to tuition today but then because there's a surprise party for my uncle so I didn't go for tuition and my dad is kinda mad about it.Talking about my dad ,my parents are still not talking to each other yet.Yes I'm counting the days.I'm kinda stress out about that.Don't know why.I'm still trying hard to ignore that issue but it still keep coming back into my mind!I'm super annoyed!
Inspiration hit me yesterday.I wrote 3 songs with no music though ,not yet.I still have to learn the basics for the guitar.step by step.
Oh yeah this afternoon my grandmother tried to make popcorn.It was OK.the second try was better that the first time.
new video......good food
Monday, June 23, 2008
Yeah I finally made a new video this afternoon.I just post it up on you tube.It's still lame and boring so I'm not gonna tell you the link.Anyway it took time to edit it even thought it was in the phone.Oh yeah on you tube there are these awsome people you should watch their videos ,here's their you tube name :-communitychannel and hoiitsroi .Make sure you check it out.
Oh and I got to eat doughnut today...awsome much!I actually feel really bloated now cuz I ate too much just now.....too much.Anyway that all I did today...nothing much.
I'm not gonna be sad
Sunday, June 22, 2008
I just came home from tuition.My mom picked us up.After that we went to watch a movie ,we watched 'Maid of Honour'.It's a really good movie.That is my new favourite movie.It's a chick flick but guys could enjoy it too.Oh yeah my mom bought me 'Josh Groban Awake Live' cd/DVD.I'm gonna watch it later.The Pussycat dolls have a new single it's call 'When I grow up'.It's a very nice song.I love the lyrics.I can totally relate to it.Just now while I was out with my mom I was kinda sad that my parents have not talked to each other yet!I found out that my dad said something wrong to my mom.I have to talk to him about that.That guy doesn't think before he talk.I have to teach and remind him that.Anyway I actually felt kinda bad that I was kinda moody towards my mom.Well I guess I'm suppose to feel that way.I'm a growing teenager after all.I got mood swing issues too only sometimes.Unlike my sis ,that girl has no feelings.She doesn't even care well I guess that kinda a good thing about it.She doesn't have to worry.I feel like I need to talk to both my parents about their issues.My mom said she's not gonna talk to my dad.Well she really cares about him and he doesn't realise and appreciate it.He need to wake up and see that he has a family that cares about him.They need to see Doctor Kathy ,that's me!Well I think of my self as a therapist .If anyone needs advice I can definitely give them some.Just ask me and I'll give you the answer.
When I came home I quickly come to my computer and start my i tunes .I really needed music.It really does calm my nerves and mind.It makes me feel relax.I'm lucky that I have music in my life.
Family drama......I'm a dreamer
Saturday, June 21, 2008
I just watch Hannah Montana and Miley Cyrus 3D concert movie.It was awesome.I love it.I totally look up to her.She have achieved so much and we're the same age.I wish I can meet her.Anyway my life now has so much drama ,but I have to stay positive.I bet if my life is a reality show ,it would be a huge hit.My parents got issues that is bothering me.I wish they can get along again by tomorrow.My dad is always the person who stat these issues!I'm really annoyed ,I keep telling myself "stay positive ,stay positive ,it's not your problem let them solve their own problems".Guess that's my life and I'll just have to live with it.I'm feeling kinda down but luckily I got music to turn my frown upside down.Tomorrow I got tuition ,I'm kinda lazy.Oh well what can I do I'm bad at maths.I hope tomorrow I'll be able to go watch a movie or just have a great Sunday!I'm really a dreamer.I think I'll be a dreamer forever.It's good though cuz you really need a dream in order to go somewhere ,achieve something huge!
Feeling bored
Friday, June 20, 2008
Past few days nothing much happen.It's kinda boring.I've been playing the Sims 2.It's fun.Anyway ,like I've said in my previous blog that I want to make videos during the holiday well I've been trying but people seem to keep coming into my room and it will definitely ruin the video cuz I don't know how to edit it.So I have to find time to make it.I had lots of idea last night .Oh well ,I'll try again when I'm free.
Making videos.....school holiday...Ryan Sheckler....my new nickname
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
I just came home from tuition.I was so bored during tuition ,but after that my mom brought me and my sis to McDonald.Anyway ,while I was in tuition ,I was thinking of making more videos to post up in you tube.All the ideas start coming into my mind ,like instead of making boring video like just talking about my day why not do something like a show or something.Erm like giving people advise or like have my own reality show.That will be so cool!I also just found out that my phone can edit videos.which is awesome because I don't know how to edit videos from the computer so it'll be easier for me to edit it from the phone.Actually I'm planning to finish my corrections and do some studies during my school holiday cuz I got nothing much to do and I kinda promised my dad that I'll do it.So I can't really break it.I'm also trying to loose some weight during the holidays but my grandmother keep cooking lunch and I have no choice ,I have to eat the food that she cooks.I'm trying to cut down my food intake and do some exercise if possible.Hopefully before December I can look good for my birthday.Talking about birthday I'm going to turn 16 by December.I don't know if I'm gonna have a Sweet sixteen birthday party but hopefully I can have an awesome party.I still can't drive though no yet.In my country the legal age to get a driving license is 18.So I'll still have to wait.If the legal age for driving is 16 that will be so cool.
Recently on MTV they just started showing 'Life of Ryan'.It's a reality show of a guy name Ryan Sheckler.My sis is so in love with him.He is currently 18 years old.I just realise if I talk about Ryan sheckler to my sister she get kinda mad cuz she don't want me to like him.Well he is hot and a great skateboarder.He's actually trying to balance his life cuz his parents just divorce and at the same time he is trying to find the perfect girl.If he don't mind long distance relationship I would date him cuz he seem like a very sweet guy.On the show mostly the girl he date end up rejecting him cuz they don't like the fact that he will always be busy and away.I really feel bad for him.If I ever meet him in person I won't hesitate to ask him out even thought I would rather prefer a guy to ask me out.Oh well hopefully I can meet him.I would so totally understand him not because from watching his show but from knowing him better in person.
Oh yeah I just tough of a perfect nickname for me.It'll be 'Miss Positive'.I think it great because I'm always the positive one and my sis is the negative one and mostly when we take pictures I'm the one who always has a big smile with teeth showing in the pictures.
Finally tomorrow is Wednesday ,which means guitar lesson!!!!Yeah ,I can't wait to learn new method of strumming.I got till the end of this month to prove to my dad that I've learn something from my lessons.Have to practise more.Wish me luck!
Hung out with my friends!
Monday, June 16, 2008
This afternoon was awesome.After having lunch at pizza hut , me and my friends went to the mall.I didn't really but stuff even though I have the money.I only spend it on a cup of drink and one arcade game.Oh yeah I saw at Golden Music they sell Josh Groban concert DVD.Who knew.It's only $11.I'm still waiting for my allowance that is if I have one.I saw my uncle too.Anyway me and my friends just walked around the mall.There was a lot of people there maybe because it's school holiday oh well that all i have for now.
Happy father's day
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Happy Father's day to daddy.I didn't had time to make him a card but I greeted him already.anyway tonight we're going out for dinner with my godmother and her family for a father's day dinner.I still can't decide what to wear.Today is also one of my best friend's birthday.So happy birthday to her ,and tomorrow she's gonna celebrate her b'day with her friends which include me.We're gonna have lunch then we'll go hang out at the mall.It's gonna be fun.Anyway I haven't done anything much yet so yeah I'm gonna stop here for today.
I'm gonna have a great 2 weeks holiday!!
Saturday, June 14, 2008
I finally quit yesterday.I was brave enough to call my dad's friend and tell him that I don't think that I'm ready to work and I want to quit and he just said OK.I was relief that it was that easy.Anyway my friends quit too.We were all relief.My dad still want me to work though ,he said that I only worked on day and I haven't experience everything yet but oh well.I told him I've planned everything for my holiday.Anyway this afternoon my mum brought me out and she bought me a beautiful dress for my 16th b'day even though it will be end of this year but the dress is beautiful!I can't wait to wear it!Today was my last day of school I had fun this morning talking to my friends.Oh yeah tomorrow is father's day I haven't make a card for my dad yet but I'm gonna make it later , Cuz he is asleep now .So I better go do it now.....
another thing...tips on how to get a good job.
Friday, June 13, 2008
I just thought about it and I think I'm gonna give you a few tips on how you know that it's a good job for you.I don't know if it true but yeah .you don't have to totally believe in this though but if you want you could try.You wouldn't want to do something that you are uncomfortable with right?Anyway here it is :-1)Make sure it's the job that you REALLY want.
2)When you go for the interview make sure you ask questions even though it could be weird or stupid.
3)Check if your pay is really worth it.like for example if the job pay you $1 per hour and you have to do a lot of things for 6 hours ,it's not worth it.(Unless you are really desperate for a job){not recommended though}
4)If you really don't wan to work and feel like you got better things to do , then don't work thrust me you won't regret your own decision.
5)Be sure that nobody is forcing you to work.That would be horrible.
6)During school holiday I think it's best have you holiday rather that not enjoying it at all.
7)If you really want to learn how working feels like and you're still young ,well you can wait meanwhile enjoy your youth.I'm not gonna work anymore.I'm just gonna enjoy my youth.
That's all I have for now but again you don't have to follow these tips.These are just my thoughts which I regreted that I didn't do.
People enjoy you youth while you have it.It is seriously precious.I really advise this!
Eeek!First day of my first job!
Last night I started my job till 11pm.It was exhausting.I had a friend with me and both of us feel like quitting.The job is boring ,not fun and both of us felt uncomfortable.Another friend of mine is gonna start next Thursday but I don't think I want to wait that long for her to start her job.I'm gonna discuss with her about that later.Last night we were the usher at the cinema ,but then I thought about it that we haven't tried the other jobs like at the snack counter or the ticketing counter and again I really don't feel like working .We are also underpay my dad say it's OK because this is my first job.AAH I'm so annoyed!The place was hot ,even thought they have air-con but I was sweating.I rather be on the big screen that working around it(if you get what I mean).Anyway I saw 3 of my school teachers there.2 of them know & recognise me!One was my bio teacher he was like "you look really familiar?" and the I said "That's because I'm your student."you know what I regret saying that it is so embarrassing.Oh yeah and another teacher was my science teacher.I seriously want to quit!I don't care about the pay it's only $7.50 .My grandmother told me don't go to work and she said that she could even give me that money and I could just stay at home and relax!I honestly would rather have extra tuition rather that going there to work but at least I've tried one day.Besides I still can wait till I older then only I find a job.I'm gonna say this is kinda a bad experience.I'm suppose to have another shift tomorrow but I don't want to go.Oh yeah tomorrow is finally the last day of school!We're not gonna study and we're gonna have some activities.It will be awesome.
Interview.....results....aaahhhh......
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
This morning I got 2 papers back.Chemistry and computer.I fail chemistry but I got the highest for computer.AAAAHHHH I wanna kill chemistry.It's torture.Only 3 people in my class pass.Everyone did really horrible.Anyway this afternoon I went for a part-time job interview with my friends and my dad was there too.The interview was kinda scary .Anyway I'm starting work tomorrow evening!!I'll be paid $1.50 per hour and I'm gonna have different working time with my friends!!After that I went for my guitar lesson.I felt really relax during the lesson.Music really calm my nerves down.I've felling nervous since I got my chemistry paper which was 9 in the morning till 2.30 pm just now.So you can see hoe nervous I was.Anyway my dad knows the owner of the working place.I'm not gonna mention where is it.Anyway my mom said It's underpaid.I have no idea.I'm gonna learn how to play "A whole new world" on guitar next lesson cool!!!Can't wait!!
Finally my exam is over!!!
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Today I had my last exam papers.Finally is over.I'm gonna have a job interview tomorrow and I'm starting to have second thoughts about it.I actually don't feel like working if my friends are not going for the interview but then I think of the working experience I'll gain and earn some pocket money and it's kinda related to the entertainment business.well it's at a cinema .Today I feel kinda tired after the exam.I really don't feel like going to tuition.When my friends found out that there is gonna be an interview for the part-time job they instantly said they don't want to work anymore.They also didn't asked their parents if they could work part-time or not and when I ask they just instantly told me they want to work.I just feel bad that I have already told my dad that there will be 7 of us that want to work and my dad told his friend.Then tomorrow it will only be me.Aaahhhhhhh,at least tomorrow I got guitar lessons!I can't wait.I'm thinking of getting vocal lessons too but again my dad wouldn't allow.
Avatar: The Legend of Aang book 3!!!!!!!!
Sunday, June 8, 2008
AAAHHHHH!!!!!!I'm super excited about Avatar tomorrow finally season 3!!Now I'm totally obsess about it.I just saw a few videos of it and made me more excited .I wish there's a store that will sell all 3 seasons set box.I'll definitely buy it.The thing that made me excited is cuz the character Prince Zuko is gonna be Aang's fire bending teacher.So cool!!I think there is gonna be season 4.I hope!!
Exams gives me headache!!
Thursday, June 5, 2008
This morning I just had my maths paper 2.It was super difficult.I gave ma a headache but luckily I finish my paper.2 more days of exam to go.I still got Chemistry paper 1 which is on next Monday and on Tuesday I got history paper1 and E.Lit.Can't wait for it to be over!!!Later I going to my friend's birthday can't wait.Happy Birthday to Sabena!!anyway got few days to rest cuz on Saturday I don't have any papers.