So anyway, My grandfather suggested to invite my father's spirit to come into this house to celebrate Christmas with us. I actually wasn't sure about that but i just went along with whatever my grandfather suggested cuz he's an elder. Anyway, the mini party was sorta fun. We had lots of food to eat. I wanted to eat everything but I couldn't I knew if I ate more I would explode eventually. My grandaunts came and my uncle came over too. I had fun.

Today was a bit boring. Christmas this year is just meh. There wasn't much to do. All I did today was walked around a shopping mall and went to watch Alvin and the Chipmunks 2. I enjoyed the movie. It was awesome plus the songs were nice in the chipmunks version.

I'll probably do more shopping tomorrow. I just realized something. My birthday is 5 days before Christmas and Ryan's birthday is 5 days after Christmas. Both still with the festive feeling. It's so awesome. When we get together we would have so much fun every December and being here in Penang, it got me thinking about staying here instead of going back to Brunei. Then I was thinking when I get together with Ryan we could come on holiday here in Penang and I would bring him shopping and we would stay in the beach hotel. That'd be awesome too.

I think I'll just stay here get a nice apartment fill with nice stuff and I'll be very happy already. Yes I need lots of thinks in life to make me happy. Especially shopping and not with my own money and yeah that sounds bad too.

Gotta go somewhere in the internet world now.

Peace-out

P.S Lots of love and Marry Christmas to everyone.

Anyway I tried to bring up the mood by listening to Michael Buble. He is awesome, he totally brought up my mood. I love how music can change a person's mood.

Just now I the afternoon, I saw Ryan on True Jackson, VP. It's a show on Nickeoldean. I only got to watch the show for like 5-10 minutes at the ending. Cuz when I found out he was on the show it's was a bit too late. Anyway when I saw him on the TV, I was jumping up and down screaming his name and my heart was beating fast. My grandparents and my cousin was staring at me weirdly and they have no idea what's going on. My mom was sorta shock with my reactions. My sis joined in with my Sheckler craziness. It was fun. I love Ryan. The thing is that he makes me frustrated sometimes because I" can't have him now. Oh well, that day will come.

Moving on, today I got myself 2 new classic books, Romeo& Juliet, and Arabian nights. Then I got a Kenny G cd and my mom got me a pair of black pants.

I hope Christmas and Christmas eve will be okay and not so sad, otherwise I'll not enjoy it.

The few thing that I'm looking forward to in this holiday are riding on a motorbike with my grandma, enjoy more shopping, go to a karaoke place and have fun with singing.

I'd like to buy more stuff but I'm running out on cash and my bag is pretty filled up. I probably need to bring a bigger bag when I come here next year.

My Christmas wish is to have Ryan tweet me, have a peaceful and joyous Christmas and have a fresh new year hopefully go to form 6 next year.

Gotta go now, got some other stuff to do.

Peace out

I'm happy for then and wish them the best wishes in their future and have a blast in their marriage. They're a cute couple.

Just now when i was still at the hotel, I tried parasailing. It was fun and not scary at all. It's nice feeling the sea breeze on my face. I can't wait to go back to the hotel next year.

Today is a Chinese festival which we eat something which I don't know what you call it in English.

I'm gonna enjoy as much as possible ofr the rest of my holiday.

This year I got lots of B'day wish compare to any other year. I love it. Thanks people!

Peace and love.

I'm having a good time just swimming only. Just now I went to dinner with my mom, sis, cousin and one of my mom's friend at this nice cafe/restaurant. It's was a nice place and the food there was good too. I like the environment there.

anyway it's past 12 and I'm officially 17!! Usually in those Vampire stories the lead character or Vampire is always 17, so I should find a vampire now! Jacob Black would be fine too as my fuzzy werewolf. Anyone can get me Ryan Sheckler as my b'day present would be awesome. I'll be the happiest girl alive. So anyone feel free to get Ryan Sheckler to notice me it would be awesome.

I've started on the new story already and so far so good. Gonna keep working on it.

Just now i went to visit Penang's new hotel, Hard Rock hotel. It's the hottest hotel in town. I love it there with all the memorabilia. took some awesome pictures. I'm reading the Lovely bones now and it's okay so far.

I was thinking, after reading "The time traveller's wife" it has somewhat changed the way I think, you know in a more open minded thinking but nit's not that I was not open minded. so yeah. anyway I'm gonna stop blogging now.

Peace-out!

That movie "Avatar" is the best movie I've seen this year, compare to any other movie, it is the best. It's a long movie but worth sitting in the cinema for about 2 hours plus to watch this film. I love the graphics and the storyline. It's written and directed by James Cameron. This film had taken 15 years to actually complete it and put it on the big screen. All the hard work was worth it and I'd like to go watch it again. I love it so much. I will get the DVD too.

I just read in Wikipedia about "Avatar" and James Cameron stated that if this film is successful( Which I know for sure it will) he plan to make 2 sequel to the movie. I hope he does.

Anyway today I spent my whole afternoon shopping in the mall. I love shopping but if you wear the wrong shoe to shopping, your feet will hurt and you will not enjoy it eventually. Well that's what happened to me today. My shoe looks good but if I walk in it for too long, It will kill my feet. But I did tried my best to walk in it as far as possible. I tried on some clothes and they didn't looked good on me so I did felt horrible like I feel ugly but then my mom tried to cheer me up by telling me that we'll find something that will look good on me eventually which made me felt even worst but my grandma kinda cheered me up but paying for my massage chair, I did felt a bit better after that so thank you very much grandma. Then my mom found something nice for me but I wanted a dress.

So anyway after that we walked pass by a nice store, you know 'British India', the clothing store? The one with all the fancy clothes. yeah we went in and both me and my sister tried on a lot of dresses but didn't buy it cuz all the dresses there are very very expensive but we just tried them on just for fun. I had a feeling that if we tried on more, they would eventually kick us out. I love the dresses there though. I was trying to look for a nice long Summer dress, I did find one but it cost like $200 +, which is very expensive.

That's pretty much what I did today so yeah, Peace ya'll!

I had domino pizza for dinner. I was actually very full from eating popcorns and drinking coke but oh well the pizza smell so good and I had this pizza with BBQ sauce on it. Taste so yummy.

I love my holiday here everytime when I come I enjoy my trip. Oh yeah just now when I went out for movie, there was traffic jam and me and my sister was curious about it and we saw a huge crowd so we got even more curious, when we finally arrived there, we saw a motorbike on the floor and there was a guy sitting at the side and his arm was covered in blood. Poor thing, I felt bad for him but in my opinion most of the people here are pretty reckless in driving and when I'm in the car watching someone drive, I feel scare and you can hear constant honking.

5 days till my birthday, 10 days till Christmas and 25 days till Ryan's birthday. See isn't December such a great month. I can't wait to come back here again next year better yet, I want to live here and the shopping here in awesome.

I'm currently writing on my new story, It's more of an adult story or a teen story. I think it's going to be a great story. I'll probably finish the whole story only I post it up, that way the excitement is still there.

Gotta go now.

Peace-out!

This morning has been eventful but I'm not gonna get into that, and the best thing is that last night I had an awesome dream while had led and inspired me to write a new story. It's pretty cool. I feel like Stephenie Meyer. Just waiting to complete a story and publish it.

Just now I finally found a nice plaid shirt. I still need to get a long necklace and chunky rings. I can really shop here. One day when I'm making money and earning a lot, I will shop everywhere.

Sometimes I feel like I'm the only happiest person in earth but oh well. I get moody at time. I'm just gonna enjoy this holiday.

I'm gonna go watch zombieland tonight and maybe watch more movies tomorrow. I'm gonna go continue writing now.

Peace-out!

I'm in Penang,Malaysia now. Visiting my family here and mostly shopping. I'm almost broke and it's only my first week here. I've already got all the thing I wanted except for Justin Bieber's album,. I still can't find it here. I was just thinking, they should open a Wal-Mart and Target here in Asia. I'd go there everytime.

Just now I went to Forever 21 and got a very pretty bracelet. I'm planning to go back there and get a necklace and some rings. I finally got David Archuleta's Christmas album and I love it. I got this Twilight book about Taylor Lautner. I got 2 pretty cardigan sweater. I now need to find a plaid shirt that looks pretty. Oh yeah I cut my hair short for the first time. I love it.

I haven't been writing my story cuz I've been busy shopping and going out a lot. I love it here, the only thing I don't like is the heat here. It's killing me. I try to ignore it though. For the first 2 days when I came all I did was shopping for the whole day.

Gotta go now. Peace I'll try to blog soon.

Now watching Life of Ryan on TV. I love my man. He is so amazing.aha.

Gonna travel tomorrow! Finally.

Anyway peace out gonna chat with my friend and watch my dear Ryan.

-Oh I pretty much just did some research about San Clemente and finally finish my chapter 10 for my story and I did some packing too. Oh yeah I went to the gym this morning and it was my last session. I don't have to go to the gym anymore until January. So yay!

-Well after the 10 session. I did fell good about myself but besides working out I have to watch what I eat too. I do fell exhausted after every workout but I some time forget how much work I did in keeping fit, I end up eating a little too much. So now i just need to watch my weight and watch my food intake.

- I had a bowl of Laksa, so yummy and I ate some honeydew but it tasted like it's already bad so yeah. Then I nibble on some other food. Oh, I had a half kebab, I shared with my mom, that's why it's half.

-Yeah, I'm just trying to get creative. Well my new chapter is basically about the date between my alter-ego and Ryan Sheckler.Oh he is awesome. The chapter is quite long. so hope whoever is reading it will enjoy.

-I'm going to visit my grandparents, my mom's side. That's what I always do every year. I plan to buy lots of stuff and just enjoy my time there. I'm going to bring my laptop with me so hopefully I'll be typing when I'm there.

-Well I got some projects going on. I have a movie that's coming soon. It's with Tom Hanks and Metthew Perry. They're really cool to work with. I also have been working on my album. I did some collaboration with some great people. so you'll just have to wait and see.

-Thanks, well it's a great show to be on and the cast are great too. We're like a big family there. The 3rd season is coming soon probably the beginning of next year. The new story on the show are pretty interesting.

-He's a very sweet guy. We don't really want to go out in public much about out relationship, because we know most of the fail relationships in the entertainment industry is because of the media.

-I don't know where that rumour came form.

I enjoy a lot of music. So I can't really give you the answer.

-I'd love to have the power to teleport.

Peace

So as you can see in my previous post, I was having a bad mood with my mom, I ignored her for the whole night but this morning I felt better and I was okay with her again. So I woke up quiet early this morning cuz I slept early. I just came back form the gym and my arms are aching and I'm going to have my last session tomorrow morning. Can't wait for it to be over then I can actually feel relax. I am planning to go back to gym in January though. I don't think I should stop my work out.

I didn't write much yesterday since I wasn't in a good mood but I did get some great ideas. I was writing with a pen and a book in the room, so no one can disturb me. All I have to do now is type it out.

Moving on, as you can see I posted up some pictures of Ryan and there's something wrong with the picture. It was taken on 3rd December at the Children's Defense Fund19th Annual Beat the Odds Awards. Well the only thing wrong with the picture is the coat he had on, I think it's too big for him. As you can see, he grew out his cute shaggy hair. His foot is healing, so that's a good new and hopefully he will be back on his board in no time and train for next year's X-Games. He is so ah. See he is just amazing. If he wanted to wear a coat, he should have wore it like in the 3rd picture. I really wish, pray and hope I will meet and be with him in the near future. Let's pray for me!

Moving on, yesterday I was doing some research on what kind of girls Ryan likes, besides blonde pretty girls. So I found this article.

I've been writing my story and it's a working in progress.

Anyway just now when I was typing and doing something and beside me I have all my things with so it's easier for me to take the things I need without moving around too much and my mom went to clean up everything. She shouldn't mess up my working space and it's just messing with my mood. So not cool at all. I really hate it when she does that everytime. so now when I need my thing I hve to get up and sit down every minute.

I wish I have my own room now, that's another thing, she decided to sleep in the same room with me by moving her bed into my room so now I don;t have my own room, Before I had my own room and I can do my own thing now it's just nothing. I don't have my personal space at all.

GEEZ! So damn annoying!!

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See that's me being annoyed! I wan to eat something now to clear my anger and the feeling of being annoyed.!

Plus my sister is always in the computer room and if I'm in there she would question me why I'm in there, It's so not fair. It's a free world. I can go anywhere I want! I really want my own room, or better yet my own apartment. Arrgh!

I'm probably PMSing or maybe somethign else, I'm just so dams stress out!!!!!! People come and mess with my mood again. It's so suckish!!

Anyway I'm out

Peace

I actually planned on getting The Sims 3 original but i have no idea if it will fit my laptop or not, so I didn't get it. I spent about $100 today and that too much, I spent on books, CD, food and movie ticket. I actually wanted to get more stuff but when I looked into my wallet, my money looked like they're disappearing. It's very sad.

Anyway I hung out with Zeedah till 7 then my mom came and brought me and my sister to Pizza Hut for dinner. I finally got my Michael Buble album and I'm very happy!

Yesterday I posted up a new chapter for my story and in my opinion it's the best chapter ever.

This morning I saw Nick Jonas & The administration first performance. It was in the Grammy Nominations concert. All I can say is that I'm very proud of Nick and he did a great job. I love his song "Who I am"

GREAT JOB NICK!!

I saw this video of Ryan

Counting down the days to officially fly out of Brunei which is in 6 more days. Whoo! I have a book and laptop and iPod and a notebook and a pen ready for this trip, yes I realize that I use too much "and" in one go.

Anyway few days ago there was an audition held in my school for a play called "Oliver" sadly I can't join because I will not be here during the holidays and I don't really like that play Oliver, it's a very sad play and I don't actually know the story line. It is a classic play for theatres to have it but most of the characters there are guys only and I don't know the songs in the play too.

I'm still thinking about tomorrow, gonna watch New Moon!!!! Finally!! I don't know if I should get too excited about it or not cuz I'm scare if I get too excited, I'll not like the movie, nope I shouldn't say that of course I'll love the movie!

This morning I woke up feeling like I'm going to have a sore throat soon and then I got excited about it but now it seems like there's nothing wrong with it. I'm probably the only person in the world who gets excited about getting sick as in not serious sick like H1N1 or bird flu. I'm talking about minor illness like slight flu or sore throat, something that will change my voice. I know it's weird. Ignore me.

I got an itechy nose now, have to go scratch it.

Peace-out

Anyway, I had laksa yesterday and it was so good, my Godmother cooked it and she called us over to her place to have dinner. Plus it was raining the whole day yesterday so it was somewhat miserable. I continued typing out my story and then played Raw Danger while my mom was using the laptop.

It's kinda annoying to see my mom use the laptop, she doesn't know how to move the cursor with the touch pad and she joined this social networking site called Tagged, and she don't even intend of joining it, plus she doesn't even know how to use the site properly, so I had to guide her through the site. I told her she shouldn't have joined if she didn't want to. She did that too for Facebook and I had to help her cancel her account. The only way she knows how to use the internet properly is by using the desktop, that's all.

So Nick Jonas is going solo for his side project and his new album is called "Who I am" which is coming out next year, I'm pretty excited about it and his band is called "Nick Jonas & The Administration" Their new single comes out today .

I'm finally going to watch New Moon tomorrow. Very excited. Later I gotta go to the gym and probably have my replacement on Saturday cuz there was no gym session yesterday. I'm planning to play the game Bratz later. I like that game.

Peace-out!